See, doc? I can think positively. My last therapy appointment was goddamn encouraging. I’d overcome a stressful week without a single breakdown. In two weeks, I’d only taken my Ativan twice, and hadn’t had any panic attacks, where just recently I’d been having them daily. I felt comfortable with my dose of Zoloft and didn’t […]
Today I stumbled upon a poem I wrote last year and completely forgot about. I guess I don’t hate it, so I’ll post it here. So You Want to Be Lonely Begin by counting heads you cannot see and haven’t seen since — hell, how long? the hours have made their revolutions in your ribs. […]
I feel like an air hockey table sometimes. And the world I perceive is just this hockey puck that glides across me, hovering over an imperceptibly thin layer of air that pushes it away. My old counselor called me a “processor.” What she meant was that I’m a slow processor. Everyone processes stimuli, but it […]
I read Harry Potter for the first time as an adult just out of college. My depression and anxiety had already been around for several years, and I thought the books were fabulous — a welcome diversion from a world I wasn’t too happy to be in at the moment. Harry once took a potion […]
I wrote this to another depressed person on the Internet who reached out. I’m posting it here so I can remember to take my own goddamn advice: Like you, my symptoms kind of “blossomed” when I was 17/18. I’m 25 now. My panic attacks are worse than ever. I’ve been through 4 counselors and 5 […]
Nutrition is important! Because our bodies are made of chemicals and our feelings are made of chemicals, the chemicals we put into our bodies can affect our feelings. So I make sure to eat a very healthy diet of feelings-friendly foods to help temper my depression! It doesn’t work. Breakfast For breakfast, I eat plain […]
Say “no.” I’ve been canceling plans with friends lately, turning down favors. There are things that I want to volunteer and help do, but I can’t. I don’t have the time or the capacity. Mostly, I don’t have the emotional resources. When I’m on the mend, I’ll be able to be more helpful and sociable, […]
Monday: shitty. Tuesday: shitty. Wednesday? Well, it’s only 6AM, and I’ve only been up for an hour, but it’s been a shitty hour. Not because of things happening. Like, it’s not like I woke up and my cat clawed my face off, which would be unfortunate to say the least. I just feel like all the […]
They say that depressed people should go to shrinks to feel better. But finding a doctor is goddamn depressing. So because I’ve been having panic attacks on the regular lately, I’ve been on the prowl (read: my fiance’s been on the prowl) for a good doctor to sort out my wonky brain wiring. My GP […]
Today, one of my friends posted an article called 10 Ways to Show Love to Someone With Depression, and it made me tear up. It made me tear up because my fiance follows this list to the letter, and I’m pretty sure he hasn’t even read it yet. 1. Help them keep clutter at bay. […]
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